pyewacket68's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Very, very, very alone. In my head today I've let this relationship with Alan expire. I guess I've just fallen out of love. Is that possible? I just realized that I'm not that important to him and I never will be. I asked him this morning if he would meet with me for lunch and his response was "I have the kids"....so I guess that rules out eating....LOL. Okay that was kind of stupid but really what stops him from meeting me for lunch? Really? I don't get it. I am realizing that the perfect person for me just doesn't exist, at all. Alan is so preoccupied with his life that he has no time for a relationship and why he wanted one is beyond me. I am so second in his world. I couldn't be bothered with it anymore. I live alone and am alone - I have no one to rely on. He never asks me what I have planned for the weekend. He just "assumes" that I will be around waiting for him? Or maybe he just doesn't care. I have given up on it. My heart just closed off (yet again)....I am unhappy but I realize now that no man or relationship can make me happy - I have to do that myself. 11:08 a.m. - 2004-08-31 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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